No pictures for today, just musings from inside my chaotic mind. I've been thinking a lot lately about things...things in life that bother me at times but I tend to squash them down and keep them buried. Of course I talk with Nick about them, but some things can't be talked out--some things require action for fixing. Not things between us--once he finds a job we will be peachy keen. Life things. Friends, job, location, neighbors, scenery....etc.
I guess you could say I am reassessing my life and where I'm at versus where I want to be. A lot of the time, life takes us in a different direction that where we think we are headed. Don't get me wrong--I feel I have done a good job of taking charge of the things I am in control of e.g. education, house, job, health, fertility. But then there are those pesky things that you have absolutely no control over. And they usually involve other people. That is where the reassessing comes in.
I'm not one to burn any bridges or go out with a bang. But I have done some reading on this subject, and I do believe in some things there comes a time where you have to step back and ask yourself if something has become toxic--are you a better person because of something, or a worse one? And with some things, the answer can be very clear. With enough time, most answers will show themselves, but it is up to you to be strong and make decisions that eventually must be made.
Sorry to be so vague ;)
I know how you feel, I have a few situations like this going on in my life too. Best thing is to be direct and deal with whatever happens afterwards. In the end we have to do what's best for ourselves and our own happiness.
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